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Dear Banat News Hugyaw,

Neil Coronado

My latest relationship happened three years ago. Not to brag or anything, nahatagan gyud ko ni God og dagway nga medyo lamang sa uban. Kay lagi itsuraan kuno, I did nothing but too fool around with girls and took love like a childish game- not until I met Kaye.

Lahi siya sa tanan babae nga akong nakaila. God fearing, very mature in the way she sees life, beautiful inside and out, ug nindot og panlantaw. To make the long story short, she changed me for the better and we had that "picture perfect relationship" that every lovers surely wish to have pero it did not last long. She passed away. Ang nakasakit pa kay di man natural iya kamatayon. Kaye was killed brutally.

Dili  gyud nako madawat ang nahitabo. I became miserable, until wala na nako nabantayan ang pagdagan sa panahon. Mag three years na siya nga wala pero wala gihapon ko ka-move on. I'm no longer interested with relationships. I tried to date some, but it always end up unsuccessful and it's my fault. I'm stuck in my happy past with Kaye.

Then one day I met this girl in the cemetery kung asa ang grave ni Kaye. Siya si Maddy. Pirme ko mudalaw sa menteryo ug mao pud si Maddy. Kay tapad ra man ang grave sa ako girlfriend ug sa papa ni Maddy. Nagtinagdanay mi ug dili ikalimod nga gwapa siya, buotan, and daghan kaayo sila'g similarities ni Kaye in terms of their personality mao nga gaan kaayo ako buot niya.  Wa magdugay we became friends, and our friendship grew into something special. I like her, ug dili pud siya lisod i-love but I can't just let my guards down this time because until now, my heart and mind was still filled with thoughts of my "everything"- si Kaye and wala na nako gi-secret ni Maddy.

She said nga nakasabot ra siya and that she is willing to adjust for me so we gave it a try. Malipayon ko kung mag-uban mi. That kind of happiness nga karon ra nako nabatyagan og balik for the past three years. I love the feeling when she cares for me, and that I also want to take care of her. But over that happiness nga iya nahatag nako, padayon gihapon ko nga moduaw ni Kaye. Iyaha ra gihapon picture ako wallpaper sa phone, ug sa tanan lihok ni Maddy and in the way she cares for me, si Kaye ako makita niya, ug nasakitan og maayo si Maddy ani nga mga buhat nako. She cried in front of me saying she want me to be honest with her.

She want me to frankly say to her kung naa ba'y padulngan amo relationship and if I love her or did I even loved her. Wala ko katubag because the truth is wa ko kahibaw kung unsa ako angay itubag. I broke her and she doesn’t deserve that. I'm still into Kaye -that's for sure pero I also couldn't deny the fact that a huge part in me badly needs Maddy's existence; so I asked her to hold on and not to give up on me. Selfish as it may seem, but dili siya mahimong mawala kanako.

Bisan wala'y certainty among relasyon, she chose to put herself at stake. She stayed, and I'm happy she did. I really thank her for reminding me that I'm still alive, so I have to live, and for making my life worth living again.

For now, I can't say na I've fully moved on from my past. It's been three years, pero ma-feel gihapon nako ang kasakit sa pagkawala ni Kaye sa akong kinabuhi. Kung pangutan-on ko kung love na ba nako si Maddy, I do. But I'm just afraid to admit it because it's hard for me to accept that I was wrong when I said that no one else could send butterflies to my stomach aside from Kaye, because Maddy also did, and she does it in a more endearing way. I'm still so full of unsure things in my mind, but one thing is certain- I need Maddy in my life,and I want to make her happy.

Sa pagkakaron, little by little I'm moving on. I'm starting to learn how to take my guards down. I'm also glad to say na daghan ug progress amo relasyon ni Maddy and I am not gonna let anyone or anything break us.

Mu-request ko sa song nga Say You'll Never Go by Erik Santos. Thank you sa pagtagad sa ako story. God speed and more power Banat News!

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